I Guess That’s Life…


I have had a plan for my life since I was about thirteen. I am now twenty years old and realize that life doesn’t follow plans – it just happens. My plan has been thrown out the window, and now I am choosing to just go with whatever life throws at me.


Why did I think I had it all figured out at such a young age? I was going to become an art therapist and I would be successful without the help of my parents. Then my interests changed and I realized that my career plan was incorrect, and decided on agricultural education. Then I moved out and realized, it’s hard out here! I want mom and dad to be responsible for me again. So my plan changed…and it keeps continuing to change.


In March, I was awarded a $20,000 scholarship to pursue a career in agricultural education. I was beyond stoked for this experience; I would spend my summers teaching, receive $10,000 my Junior and Senior year, and spend life after my degree doing what I had always dreamed of: teaching agriculture. The thing was, deeply rooted in the back of my mind I knew that was not my calling. My heart ached to take photographs and write, but I kept telling myself, “No. You are going to be a teacher, that’s the plan.” Too bad for that plan, because by time May came around I realized I had no desire to spend the rest of my life in a classroom. So here I am, halfway through my college career turning down $20,000 because I realized no amount of money can change the way I feel about my future endeavors.


Now, this is not the case for everyone, but life changes for everyone. Maybe it is the person who decided to take a gap year in college because they need money or because they are confused about what they want to do for the rest of their life. Sometimes it is because God called someone to Heaven earlier than expected, and you have to change according to God’s plan. Then there’s the case that God puts a baby in your life and you have to step up to take care of someone else. There are so many changes to our plans, not one is the same, but we all have to learn to change our plans.
Plans changing is hard and it can take a while to realize how you want to face it. You are forced to step up and face what life is throwing at you. Life is just hard; like, I want to break down and cry every two hours hard. And then something clicks, you learn to change paths and it gets easier as you go. There are going to be hard days in life, but those days just make you appreciate the good ones that much more.